One of the upsides to admitting I'm a (recovering) addict have been the messages I've received from other recovering addicts. The need to process and talk about what I've been through is great. During my first week in rehab at Oaks Recovery, I rarely spoke. It took a few people there to push me to get that ball rolling. Fast forward to the now, post-jail and post-rehab, the desire to talk things out during this self-examination period is greater than it was before. Maybe this is normal. I don't know. I've made attempts to get clean before. But this time is most definitely different.
Since I've spoken out about my addiction, I've received messages from men and women all over the world. More are pouring in every day. It reminds me of when "Paranormal State" debuted and people reached out to share their paranormal experiences. Now, however, people are reaching out to share their experiences with addiction and recovery. To my surprise, I'm realizing how important these new connections are to me. I feel a wide variety of emotions when I read them. And I spend at least a couple hours a day responding to as many as I can.
Tonight, a new Facebook friend of mine, a gentleman with some experience with recovery, reached out to me to share his thoughts about addiction and it affecting those who can be considered spiritual warriors. He asked for my thoughts. My response is below. I don't know this guy, nor others I've recently connected with, but I'm beginning to feel lighter the more I open up. Like with my childhood paranormal experience, I am searching for answers to the questions I have about addiction and what I allowed it to do to me and the ones I love.
For those of you suffering from addiction, or to those of you who are in recovery, I don't know you but I love you for your pain and your struggle. And I admire you for fighting and hanging on. I have a feeling I have yet to meet some of my life-long friends, but through this common journey we share, we will cross paths someday soon. I don't know if that made sense. I hope it does.